A Celebration!
Today is our youngest child’s first birthday! An entire year with our sweet Maisynn! Sunshine girl.
I thought it would be fun to start my blog off with birthday celebrations, tmi moments, and a birth story! A true showcase of what conversation is like with me!
I don’t know about you, but I Adore reading in-depth features from other mothers. Bringing a child earth side is no small feat and every story is always so different, filled with emotions, and dripping in the truest form of surrender.
I have three beautiful babies. Maisynn is our youngest! She was born the end of March, 2020. March 2020?! Yes!I was extremely nauseous for months of my pregnancy. Once I started to keep food down, the Covid-19 pandemic hit the United States. Then I was diagnosed with Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction and told I couldn’t see a physical therapist. (if you know, you know. ouch!!)
THEN the fact that I might have to labor alone because of infection spread entered the ring. I was already dealing with extreme anxiety during this third pregnancy and every appointment honestly made it worse. So I’m sure you can imagine my thrill in LABORING A CHILD without my support person. (Insert sarcastic smile.)So to ease your minds! My fiance Was allowed in the room with me once we were admitted! (I know that isn't the case for everyone who gave birth around the same time as this. It was a terrifying time to bring a baby into the world.) I labored for an hour alone in triage but thankfully that was all.My labor wasn’t progressing the way I (or the doctors) had hoped. Looking back, I just wasn’t relaxed. I was anxious, nervous, and I couldn't seem to find something that calmed me down from where I was mentally. I was using my entire "natural" tool kit. contractions were coming hard and fast without progress and I could feel my nurse's un-easiness.We mutually decided to break my water in hopes to help the baby drop lower into the birthing canal. Something was preventing baby from dropping down correctly. During the puncture process, we found meconium in the amniotic fluid showing stress from the baby. I couldn’t focus. I was loosing all hope at grounding myself and trusting. I felt like I was failing.So I decided on an epidural.. I had Never had one before. (I honestly never even looked up information on an epidural because I was so dead set on not getting one.) But here we were with someone inserting a needle into my spinal cord.I sighed a deep breath of relief when I felt the release of contraction pains. The epidural went PERFECTLY. Worked on both sides beautifully. A literal picture perfect placement. I still remember how calm my OBGYN and the nurse anesthetist stayed the whole time! they were the greatest two women that I had the chance to meet on my team. Full of life, trust, knowledge, support, and kindness.Then it was time to push! Yes! The best part of the birthing process in my opinion!! I talk so passionately about feeling my other children crown and slip through earth side. away I worked!
I'm there working with my doctor on when to push with pressure. Bear down, breathe. Feel the wave, push hard...But the Something was wrong.My OBGYN started to try to self-manipulate the cervix and baby. She was reaching, feeling, moving, stretching.The was a side glace to the nurse bedside. Then a phone call I couldn’t hear. Umbilical cord prolapse. The umbilical cord had started down the birth canal before the baby. The risk was that we were cutting off life-sustaining oxygen. Emergency cesarean. Run.People sprinted into the room before it was all fully explained. My doctor rode on the bed with me to the OR while holding the baby and umbilical cord in place and preventing any forward movement through the birth canal. I remember the doctor and the nurse climbing over me in the bright lights, switching places to keep everything in place inside my body. People yelling to move faster. Hurry. Quick. Here, hold this. The anesthetic mask went on and I fell out of consciousness wondering if I’d get to meet the daughter I’d spent 8.5 months carrying, growing, nurturing….When I came to, I was back in my room with my fiance, TJ, and my gorgeous daughter wrapped in blankets. she was waiting patiently to nurse. She was here. We were both stable. people were smiling and congratulating us on our new child! Through all of the unknowns, the universe still chose to show that miracles will prevail in the darkest hours. A new baby! In the middle of a modern- day global pandemic. After an emergency caesarean. Welcome! Let your beautiful life begin.
Happy birthday to my miracle child. You bring peace, laughter, excitement, and LIFE into our family. Thank you for blessing us with your presence and personality. You are so loved, Maisynn Ruth.
